What happened on Tuesday May 30th?

Gerber Daisy

Okay I am a big wimp, a suck, a cry baby. I try to follow two rules in life ... Pay It Forward and TANSTAAFAL.

"What do you mean?" you say, well, Pay It Forward was not just a movie, it's an idea .. Do something good or receive a good deed and instead of expecting payment (cash, gift or even a thank you) ask for it to be payed forward. So the person you help, helps someone else. I know simple idea, hard to do.

As for TANSTAAFL, it stands for There Ain't No Thing As A Free Lunch Kind of harsh, but it true, nothing in this world is free, you have to work for everything you get. No one owes you anything, you have to work to recieve. When you receive something with what some people think of haveing no strings attached, to me means I have to work to pass the that reward on. I am responsible for the good deeds done for me or by me. So Pay It Forward and TANSTAAFL are ideas to live by.

What made me write about this philosphy is a new feature it the Toronto Star. Give it a read, I was on the verge of tears.
(what a wimp I am)

Listening to: Siouxsie And The Banshees, Playground Twist, off of Join Hands (1979)
Hanging...
Hanging from your daisy chains
Swinging in the trees
Running from your enemies
And falling on your knees
On your knees
Get down on your knees

Throw the dice
You three blind mice
Did you ever see
Such a thing in your life
You swallow the trail
But still arrive
Inside your entrails

Hanging...
Hanging out at party games
Dancing in the shadows
Up and down on the see-saw
Balancing the scales
You're drunk
Yet you're balancing the scales

Someone to blame
Someone to shame
Someone who you can claim
Go back to pass the parcel
And follow the leader

Hanging...
Hanging from your climbing frames
Swinging in the gallows
Laughing with your buddies
But you can drown when you're shallow
You can drown...

What happened on Tuesday May 29th?

No posts today just photos. I am trying to write something on DRM, Music, file sharing and the record industry, but I just haven't taken the time to sit down and write .. so today you get pretty pictures from my garden.

The last tulip of the year is gone from the garden.

Close up of Bleeding Hearts


Orange and Yellow Gerber


Bleeding Hearts



Listening To: J. Geils Band, Musta Got Lost, With Intro, From: Blow Your Face Out, 1976

(Spoken)
Hold on this song has a little introduction to it
It's ain't supposed to be sad though you might feel it that way
It's a song about desperation,
Every now and then we do get desperate

This is a song about L-O-V-E,
and if you abuse it you're gonna lose it
and if you lose it you're gonna abuse and
if you abuse it you ain't gonna be able to choose it
cuz you ain't gonna have it further on down the line
things ain't gonna be so fine
you're gonna to be sitting there on your little machine
tryin' to look and keep it clean
You're going to be home playing bingo all night all alone
that's why your sittin there by the telephone
and you know that she ain't goin' to call you!

So you put on the TV and you're watchin' Johnny Carson
segwayin right into the Tomorrow show
but that don't got the go so you turn it off ya turn on the radio,
the radio don't seem to get the click so you say
"Hey Man, I can't lickety split"
You start to open up a little book
and there's somethin there you got to overlook
and you say "BABY, you know there's somethin on my mind!
"You say "Baby there's somethin' on my mind -
I know that you're home and I know you ain't all alone! "

So you start walking over to her house
and you get over to her house
and you walk over to her door
you start poundin on her door, you say
"Open up the door bitch!
This is wooba gooba with the green teeth, let me in!!"

Well, she opens up the door
and then you just kinda walk up to her and say
"Baby", you look up way up at her green mascara
and you say "Oh my darling,
you know her and me was at the party as friends
do not believe what they say
that's only gossip that they tellin ya
a wise cracker line!"
You say Darlin'!!!

Take your big curls and just squeeze them down Ratumba
What's the name of the chick with the long hair?
(Rapunzel!) ya say hey Rapunzel! heh heh heh
Hey Reputah! Reputa the Beautah!
Hey Reputa the Beautah flip me down your hair
and let me climb up to the ladder of your love!!
Because this is what woofa goofa's sayin to ya
"Love comes once and when it comes
you've got to grab it fast cuz sometimes the love
you grab ain't gonna last and
I believe I musta,
You know I think I musta,
You know baby I think I musta,
You know I think I musta,
I musta got lost!!!!!!!

1 2 3

(Sung)
Never thought about tomorrow
Seemed like a long time to come
How could I be so blind, baby
Not to see you were the one

I let ya slip on from me baby
I let you walk on by,
Shoulda loved, you had told me
I refused to love, I let it die

I musta got lost, musta got lost, I musta got lost
Somewhere down the line
Musta got lost, musta got lost
Give away the days you were mine

Don't know why I let you leave me
Honey, I don't know
Say its hard to see lovers comin' babe
Honey I've a way to see them go

Musta got lost, musta got lost, musta got lost
Somewhere down the line
Musta got lost, I got lost
Give away the days you were mine

Love can be a sweet thing
Girl I just don't understand
Made a game outta lovin' you
Now I hold the losin' hand

Oh, I musta got lost, musta got lost, musta got lost
Somewhere down the line
Musta got lost, I got lost, girl
Give away the days you were mine

I just don't understand it
I just don't understand it
I just don't understand it

And I musta got lost, musta got lost, musta got lost
Somewhere down the line, hey
Musta got lost, baby, I got lost girl
Give away them days you were mine

Musta got lost, I got lost, musta got lost
Somewhere down the line
Musta got lost, oh I got lost girl
Give away them days you were mine

C'mon
Oh, I got lost, babe, double-crossed
Your lovin, give it to me all night long

(Instrumental Break)

I said your love got me higher,
than I ever been lifted before

I said your love has got me higher,
than I ever been lifted before!!!

Somewhere!!!!!

Outbreaks of violence at Canadian schools

Eldest skateboards with a couple of guys who go to CW Jefferys ... if you don't know what I'm talking about, a boy was murdered in the school on Wednesday. It's about a 20 minute walk from my house. This sucks.

Eldest is kind of freaked becuase this happened in his back yard. A couple of weeks ago he was put into situation where he had to fight back .. a grade 12 student decided for some reason that Eldest was a good target (Eldest is in grade 9) and started to push him around. eldest fought back and stood up for himself, but what could have happend?

We handled it through the school, but decided to report it to the police because the guy was 18. Nothing we could do because there was no serious injury to Eldest. The CW Jefferys killing sounds like the same thing, some kid tried to stand up for himself, but in this case the murderer was stupid. Now some family is without their son. As I said this sucks.

Outbreaks of violence at Canadian schools

(CP) - A list of some major violent incidents at Canadian schools:

May 23, 2007: Gunman shoots and kills 14-year-old student at C.W. Jefferys Collegiate Institute in Toronto.

Sept. 13, 2006: Kimveer Gill, 25, opens fire at Dawson College in Montreal, killing one woman and injuring 20 people.

April 20, 2000: Four students and one staff member wounded in knife attack at Cairine Wilson High School in Orleans, Ont. Occurs on first anniversary of Columbine massacre.

April 28, 1999: 14-year-old boy shoots two students, one fatally, at W.R. Myers High School in Taber, Alta.

Feb. 8, 1999: Man fires shot at Woodland Elementary School in Verdun, Que. No one injured.

October 1997: 35-year-old man fatally shoots teacher at Montreal language school for immigrants.

October 1994: Two guidance counsellors at Brockton High School in Toronto shot and wounded by student unhappy with grades.

June 1993: Teen wounded outside Gladstone Secondary School in Vancouver in drive-by shooting.

Aug. 24, 1992: Valery Fabrikant, professor at Concordia University in Montreal, goes on shooting rampage at school, killing four colleagues and wounding one.

February 1990: Jilted teenager shoots and wounds estranged girlfriend at General Brock High School in Burlington, Ont.

December 1989: Marc Lepine, 25, shoots dead 14 women at University of Montreal's Ecole polytechnique engineering school, then kills himself.

October 1978: 17-year-old student shoots 16-year-old to death at Sturgeon Creek Regional Secondary School in Winnipeg.

Oct. 27, 1975: Robert Poulin, an 18-year-old militia sharpshooter, shoots six people at Ottawa's Saint Pius X school and then kills himself. One wounded student dies just over a month later. Poulin had killed a girl at a youth home before he went to the school.

May 1975: Michael Slobodian, 16, kills teacher and student and wounds 13 others at Centennial Secondary School in Brampton, Ont., before turning gun on himself.

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Outbreaks of violence at U.S. and Canadian schools

(CP) - A list of some major violent incidents at North American schools:

May 23, 2007: Gunman shoots and kills 14-year-old student at C.W. Jefferys Collegiate Institute in Toronto.

April 16, 2007: Deadliest shooting rampage in U.S. history as gunman opens fire in a dorm and classroom at Virginia Tech University in Blacksburg, Va. The toll is 33 dead, including the gunman, who committed suicide.

Oct. 2, 2006: A 32-year-old gunman enters an Amish schoolhouse in Nickel Mines, Pa., and holds 10 girls hostage before shooting them. Five girls are killed, and five more wounded. The gunman also kills himself.

Sept. 13, 2006: Kimveer Gill, 25, opens fire at Dawson College in Montreal, killing one woman and injuring 20 people.

Aug. 30, 2006: 19-year-old man in Hillsborough, N.C., kills father, then opens fire at Orange High School, wounding two students before surrendering to police.

March 14, 2006: 14-year-old boy in Reno, Nev., bring's father's revolver to Pine Middle School and wounds two classmates.

Jan. 13, 2006: 15-year-old boy at Milwee Middle School in Longwood, Fla., holds class hostage at gunpoint before being fatally shot by police. It is later learned his weapon was a pellet gun.

Nov. 8, 2005: Student at high school in Jacksboro, Tenn., shoots and kills assistant principal. Principal and another assistant principal wounded.

March 21, 2005: 16-year-old boy in Red Lake, Minn., fatally shoots grandfather and grandfather's partner at home, then goes to Red Lake High School, where he kills five students, a teacher and a security guard before committing suicide.

May 7, 2004: Two men, 18 and 24, shoot and wound four students at high school in Randallstown, Md.

March 30, 2004: Student at Wallace High School in Gary, Ind., shot to death in school parking lot by classmate.

Feb. 3, 2004: 14-year-old boy in Palmetto Bay, Fla., stabs and slits throat of 14-year-old classmate at Southwood Middle School.

Feb. 2, 2004: 19-year-old man shoots to death 17-year-old boy at Ballou Senior High School in Washington, D.C.

Sept. 24, 2003: 15-year-old boy shoots two classmates at Rocori High School in Cold Spring, Minn. One dies same day, other dies two weeks later.

April 24, 2003: 14-year-old boy shoots principal to death in school cafeteria in Red Lion, Pa., before killing himself.

March 5, 2001: 15-year-old freshman opens fire with .22-calibre pistol at Santana High School in Santee, Calif., killing two students and injuring 13 others.

Jan. 10, 2001: 17-year-old gunman fires shots at Hueneme High School in Oxnard, Calif., before taking female student hostage. He is later shot and killed by police.

May 26, 2000: 13-year-old honours student shoots and kills teacher on last day of classes in Lake Worth, Fla.

April 20, 2000: Four students and one staff member wounded in knife attack at Cairine Wilson High School in Orleans, Ont. Occurs on first anniversary of Columbine massacre.

Feb. 29, 2000: Six-year-old boy shoots six-year-old girl to death in Grade 1 classroom at Buell Elementary School in Mount Morris Township, Mich. Because of his age, boy is not charged.

Dec. 6, 1999: 13-year-old student fires at least 15 shots at Fort Gibson Middle School in Fort Gibson, Okla., wounding four classmates.

Nov. 19, 1999: 12-year-old boy shoots 13-year-old girl in head at school in Deming, N.M. Girl dies next day.

May 20, 1999: 15-year-old boy opens fire at Heritage High School in Conyers, Ga., with .357-calibre Magnum and rifle, wounding six students.

April 28, 1999: 14-year-old boy shoots two students, one fatally, at W.R. Myers High School in Taber, Alta.

April 20, 1999: Two heavily armed teenagers rampage through Columbine High School in Littleton, Colo., killing 12 students and one teacher before committing suicide.

April 16, 1999: High school sophomore fires two shotgun blasts in school hallway in Notus, Idaho. No one injured.

Feb. 8, 1999: Man fires shot at Woodland Elementary School in Verdun, Que. No one injured.

May 21, 1998: 17-year-old boy kills parents, then goes to high school in Springfield, Ore., on shooting rampage, killing two teens and wounding more than 20 people.

May 19, 1998: 18-year-old honours student opens fire at high school in Fayetteville, Tenn., killing classmate who was dating his ex-girlfriend.

April 24, 1998: 15-year-old boy opens fire at eighth-grade dance in Edinboro, Pa., killing teacher.

March 24, 1998: Four girls and teacher shot to death and 10 people wounded during false fire alarm at middle school in Jonesboro, Ark., when two boys, 11 and 13, open fire from woods.

Dec. 1, 1997: Three students die and five wounded at Heath High School in West Paducah, Ky., after 14-year-old boy opens fire.

October 1997: 35-year-old man fatally shoots teacher at Montreal language school for immigrants.

Oct. 1, 1997: 16-year-old boy in Pearl, Miss., shoots two students to death and wounds seven others after stabbing his mother to death.

Feb. 19, 1997: 16-year-old boy takes shotgun and bag of shells to school in Bethel, Alaska, killing principal and student and wounding two others.

October 1994: Two guidance counsellors at Brockton High School in Toronto shot and wounded by student unhappy with grades.

June 1993: Teen wounded outside Gladstone Secondary School in Vancouver in drive-by shooting.

Aug. 24, 1992: Valery Fabrikant, professor at Concordia University in Montreal, goes on shooting rampage at school, killing four colleagues and wounding one.

February 1990: Jilted teenager shoots and wounds estranged girlfriend at General Brock High School in Burlington, Ont.

December 1989: Marc Lepine, 25, shoots dead 14 women at University of Montreal's Ecole polytechnique engineering school, then kills himself.

October 1978: 17-year-old student shoots 16-year-old to death at Sturgeon Creek Regional Secondary School in Winnipeg.

Oct. 27, 1975: Robert Poulin, an 18-year-old militia sharpshooter, shoots six people at Ottawa's Saint Pius X school and then kills himself. One wounded student dies just over a month later. Poulin had killed a girl at a youth home before he went to the school.

May 1975: Michael Slobodian, 16, kills teacher and student and wounds 13 others at Centennial Secondary School in Brampton, Ont., before turning gun on himself.

What happened on Tuesday May 22nd?

Okay, who watched the season finale of Heroes? Who is pissed off, I mean who's is pissed off that we have to wait for September or October to see what happens next. Sylar's escape at the end was bit contrived. We need another antagonist to hate and fear.

Did Peter die? Did Nathan die? Hold on wait a second, Peter has Claire's healing power. So if Nathan dropped Peter before Peter could explode would that mean both Peter and Nathan are still alive.

Why wouldn't Sylar try to explode instead of throwing Hiro across that Plaza. What did the greying of the eyes mean, was Sylar having a vision before he passed out. What was the vision. What in the heck is Hiro doing in Japan of the 1600's.

If you need your Heroes kick, head over to NBC's Heroes page, the have a really good online graphic novel to read. When going through the Heroes page, hit a few links they have put in a few surpires .. Yamagato Fellowship, maybe apply for a job at Primatech Paper. Or if your really in need of a Heroes fix log into 9th Wonders.

We'll we have to wait until August 28th to buy the season 1 DVD. To many questions, what a great cliff hanger.

Listening to The Clash, Time is Tight, Black Market Clash (It's a instrumental cover of the Booker T. Jones song.)

What happened on Wednesday May 16th?

More Tulips, the storm last night destroyed them so no more tulip shots.

Aaahh!! I admit I am a weak man. HMV is having a special sale .. Buy one CD for $10 get one for free. When the girls and I were in buying CD's for mothers day I saw the CD's for sale in a rack. I took a quick look, mostly no name albums or artists, but I saw a bit of gold. I am a sucker for what I call delete bins.

So today I went back to HMV ... I am weak.

5 CD's.
Janis Joplin - I Got Dem Ol' Kosmic Blues Again Mama, Columbia Records -> $10.00
The Clash - Black Market Clash, Sony -> Free
Dave Brubeck's - Greatist Hits, Columbia Legacy -> $10.00
Cowboy Junkies - Platinum Gold Collection RCA/BMG Heritage -> Free

and then since I got such a good deal (I think I did)
Hostage Life - Walking Papers, Underground Operations -> $14.99

So five albums for $40.00, not so bad.

This delete bin thing goes way back into my past. When I first started working fulltime I was at a radio station that is now gone. I started there back in '85 as a overnight audio tech. A group of us from the station would get together every friday morning for pancakes at the Golden Griddle across from Maple Leaf Gardens. Once breakfast was finished we would hit the record stores on Yonge Street, the challenge was to buy as many records as you could with spending as little money as possible. I found and bought discs from the delete bins like The Who-Tommy for $4.99, the 1980 album Drastic Measures by Drastic Measures (this is the one with Teddy Bears Picnic on it, I think Nash the Slash had something to do with the arranging of that song), and Black Flag My War. Those were great days, I never had much money but I always seemed to have enough to spend it on records, comics and beer. Part of me misses those days.

To top this off I have found a couple of songs online that have made me very happy.
One Louder has posted multiple versions of one of my favorite songs .. Black Betty. Add to that I have finally found a copy of William Shatner covering Pulp's Common People

By the way great episode of Heroes on monday. The season ending is next Monday.

Listening to XTC, All Of You Pretty Girls, The Big Express 1984

Do something for me, boys
If I should die at sea, boys
Write a little note, boys
Set it off afloat, saying

Bless you, bless you, all of you pretty girls
Village and city girls by the quayside
Bless you, bless you, all of you pretty girls
Watching and waiting by the sea

Bless you, bless you, all of you pretty girls
Quiet or witty girls by the quayside
Bless you, bless you, all of you pretty girls
Watching and waiting by the sea

I think about your pale arms waving
When I see the caps upon the green
And the rocking roller-coaster ocean
Think about you every night when I'm fathoms asleep
And in my dreams
We are rocking in a similar motion

I think about the salt sea rolling
Down in pearly tears upon your cheeks
Just like the day the harbour pulled away
I think about your warm white sheets unfolding
The more I have to drink
The more that I can think to say

White Tulip Macro


Meme found over at Nic's Opinions.

1. What is your occupation?
Inside software sales

2. What color are your socks right now?
White ankle high sports socks .. can’t go barefoot, they start to stink to much

3. What are you listening to right now?
Pay the Man, Offspring

4. What was the last thing that you ate?
Pink Lady apple .. so sweet and juicy

5. Can you drive a stick shift?
Yup, but haven’t for at least ten years, so I would probably strip the gears.

6. If you were a crayon, what color would you be?
Blue

7. Last person you spoke to on the phone?
A client, closed a sale

8. How old are you today?
44

9. Favorite drink:
Non alcoholic: water
alcoholic: Guinness

10. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Lacrosse

11. Have you ever dyed your hair?
Wife dyed my left eyebrow two years ago, it went from partially white to all white, never again. North American dyes have a chemical that can make vitilago worse.

12. Any piercings?
one in the left ear, have always wanted to get 3 more with each of the kids birth stones.

13. Pets?
two black cats, fish (we just cleaned the aquarium and bought new fish) and the $600 bunny who lives in the garage

14. Favorite food?
you mean I have to pick one

15. What was the last movie you watched?
sad but I can’t remember the name of the movie .. It was about a contract killing being grabed by a bunch of hitmen and women. Came out last year, I saw it in my hotel room while in Florida.

16. Favorite day of the year?
My birthday.

17. What do you do to vent anger?
You don’t want to be around, I install fear.

18. What was your favorite toy as a child?
Billy Blast Off .. dating myself here.

19. What is your favorite fall or spring?
Both ..

20. Hugs or kisses?
deep intimate kisses!

21. Cherries or Blueberry?
Cherries … Blueberries are a everyday food… Cherries are a treat!

22. Living arrangements?
Wife, 3 kids, mother in law, two cats, fish and a rabbit in the garage

23. When was the last time you cried?
Couple of months ago, wife and I were watching a movie.

24. What is on the floor of your closet?
I don’t have a closet .. I get a armour. Its full of boxes that we have no where to put.

25. What did you do last night?
cooked, cleaned up after dinner, loaded cd’s to iTunes, went to bed around 12:30 pm

26. Favorite smells?
Strawberries, watermelon, fresh apple pie. A woman in the mood.

27. Favorite dog breed?
Irish Wolfhound

28. Favorite day of the week?
Friday

29. How many states have you lived in?
Have only ever lived in Ontario

30. Favorite holiday?
Christmas

Listening to: Rancid: Old Friend, "And Out Come The Wolves (1995)"
From LyricWiki

Good morning heartache
You're like an old friend
Come and see me again

Look up you're in Cleveland again
A solid line that never ends
I got stories that you'll never believe
And I know it, I wear it, I wear it on my sleeve
There must be something about you that I liked
But right here in the rain, you know, it just don't seem right
I always go out, I never hide
But in Cleveland I should've stayed inside

Testify my love for you
And I know it runs deep through your body too
From the cold black top to the hot concrete
And the old tin van, it aint so sweet

Somewhere in America
Through the city at night
And you were far from home
But you knew it was gonna be alright

The unfortunate get prayed on by vultures' eyes
Eighty-six cents in these pockets of mine
You can take my money, you can take my time
But you can't take my heart, it's in the city behind

What happened on Sunday May 13th?

Tulips in the garden

Ah, Mothers Day has gone off without a hitch, other than I am exhausted. Wife had a nice relaxing day, I worked, kids did sqwat ... I'm being unfair, they helped a bit. On saturday Middle, Youngest and I went shopping for MDay gifts. We found two nice sweaters and a white skirt at Sears and at H&M we found a really nice sun dress and a very colourful babydoll sun shirt. I have discovered the perfect way to shop for wife. See cloths, show it to the girls, girls go yes/no, look at price, hold on to it until we see something else, at the end ask the girls which ones to buy. Fool proof. In fact I was 5 for 5 on the cloths gifts this year. I'm ususally 2 for 5.

Had to hit HMV .. what is mothers day without giving the gift of music. (heck I even gave my mother music... Michael Buble and Dissy Gillespie.) Took the girls in .. I picked the music,(Middle is going on about how Mom won't like that), I trusted my instincts. INXS - The Greatist Hits from 1994 and the 2007 Grammy Nominees CD. Once again, I was 2 for 2. Last years cd's were questionable, but once she listened to them, I did okay.

So we gave the gifts to Wife in the morning, after letting her sleep in of course. We had a quiet day, the girls had swimming, Eldest had homework (we'll talk about this another time, he is grounded again) and I did laundry. Went to church and once we got home I began to prepare dinner. I made bbq chicken breast for the kids and I (Wife is a veggie), fried sweet potato and yukon gold potato chips, grilled veggies, and spanakopita. (It turned out great, Eldest tried some and even liked it, though said it could have used more Feta.)

As Wife went to bed tonight I got a kiss and a thank you. Good day had by all.

And now for a little story reinforcing why I always have to watch what I do so I don't slip into loserdom.

On thurday morning I was backing the crown vic out of the garage, more worried about the tune on the iPod than what I was doing and SMASH CRASH ... fuck...

I broke the f**ing drivers side mirror. What a tool.

Listening to Chan Chan Buena Vista Social Club

De Alto Cedro voy para Marcan'
Llego a Cueto voy para Mayar
El cari o que te tengo
No te lo puedo negar
Se me sale la babita
Yo no lo puedo evitar

Cuando Juanica y Chan Chan
En el mar cern an arena
Como sacud�a el 'jibe'
A Chan Chan le daba pena

Limpia el camino de paja
Que yo me quiero sentar
En aquel tronco que veo
Y as no puedo llegar

De Alto Cedro voy para Marcan'
Llego a Cueto voy para Mayar

What happened on Wednesday May 9th?

Diving off the rocks, last summer

Sorry about not posting lately, but I really have not had anything to say. Kids are healthy, Wife is a workaholic, my sales are slow and we are already way under quota, but there is nothing I can do accept keep calling.

I've been really getting into finding more music for my IPod. I have to admit I am kind of collector. Music Slut, Perfumed Garden (great Peel sessions) and Something I Learned Today are really good for MP3's so that I can see if I like the music. Then of course I feel guilty and have to go out and buy a CD. Oh by the way, if your really into music and want to know the history behind it. Allan Cross at CFNY is finally podcasting the "On Going History of New Music" The music has been striped out but it's still well worth listening to.

Heroes is almost over, shame, it’s been great. The last two episodes have kept me on the edge of my seat. Thank god we recently got digital TV, since Eldest has a lacrosse game every Monday, I thought I would miss Heroes, but luck has it that Global BC runs the show at 11pm Eastern. So I get my Heroes fix, with no withdrawal. Speaking to TV withdrawal, does anyone know if Rockstar is back on this summer, I can't find any mention of it. Wife, who is in advertising, says she hasn't seen it in any of the summer schedules. Sucks.

Was thinking this morning about making a dreary depressing post about not knowing where you are in your career. You know what I mean, mid 40's, no direction at the job, just making money and bidding time till your real life starts. (Kids, home, weekends, marriage). Then I realized why complain, someone is paying me to do something I do well so that I can do what I want. Kids, home, marriage etc... Work is not the be all and end all of us. We have to have another course planned out. I decided I work for money so that I can do the things I want. I don't work to self fulfill my personal needs to be a human. Now I just have to make myself get up off the couch and pick up a brush to paint, go to TaiKwonDo (I haven't gone since I got back from Florida, no excuse other than I'm a lazy shit), take the camera and snap some pictures, sketch, ride a bike, teach youngest to ride her bike, spend time with the kids, snuggle with Wife or spend a couple of hours gardening. I just have to realize that these are the things that make me happy.

Thanks for the comments guys .. keep them coming.
(by the way la bellina mammina the orchids are from Royal Pacific Resort Orlando Florida, the only time you see those here in Ontario is at a green house or as a house plant. They are very hard to grow as they don't like the extremes of temp that we have.) Thanks for the comment, I love to take photos of flowers.

I'm doing so bad in they hockey pool that I'm not even looking any more. Last time I looked I was 15th place.

Listening to The Band, Chest Fever, from "Music From Big Pink" (1968)

I know she's a tracker, any scarlet would back her
They say she's a chooser, but I just can't refuse her
She was just there, but then she can't be here no more
And as my mind unweaves, I feel the freeze down in my knees
But just before she leaves, she receives

She's been down in the dunes and she's dealt with the goons
Now she drinks from the bitter cup, I'm trying to get her to give it up
She was just here, I fear she can't be here no more
And as my mind unweaves, I feel the freeze down in my knees
But just before she leaves, she receives

It's long, long when she's gone, I get weary holding on
Now I'm coldly fading fast, I don't think I'm gonna last
Very much longer

"She's stoned" said the Swede, and the moon calf agreed
I'm like a viper in shock with my eyes in the clock
She was just there somewhere and here I am again
And as my mind unweaves, I feel the freeze down in my knees
But just before she leaves, she receives

(Lyric copied from LyricWiki)