What happened on Monday February 18th?

Okay here I am Forty-five years old and happy (drugged but happy .. joking). Yesterday was my birthday, and I really don't feel a day over twenty-five.

Aren't we supposed to feel older and more mature as we grow up? I always thought I would, but every day I am surprised that I have 3 kids between 15 and 8. That I've been married to the same beautiful woman for 20 years. That I have been working for almost twenty three years (spread that over about 7 companies). Here I am supposedly getting old and I just don't feel that way. (hey the other night at TaiKwonDo I was doing ninja rolls and summersaults .. I paid for it the next day). So I guess what I saying is all that myth about adults getting older and wiser is just crap (shhh!!! don't let the secret out)

Here it is the first official Family Day in Ontario and I am at work. Or at least I am supposed to be working. What are you doing?

Here is a couple of original tracks and cover versions for you to listen to. Which version do you like better?

John Lee Hooker - Boom Boom Boom (download .mp3)
The Animals - Boom Boom Boom(live)(download .mp3)
Howlin' Wolf - Killing Floor (download .mp3)
Jimi Hendrix - Killing Floor(live Monterey Pop)(download .mp3)

If you like the music go out and buy some.

I just finished reading White Night by Jim Butcher. If you want a great read with a lot of adventure, humour and just all around fun, pick up any of Jim's Dresden file books. Now I read a fair bit, but lately I've been looking into what and how I read. School books and Non Fiction, I can't get into, in fact I can't pay attention to a single page long enough to get any information out of it. (though for some reason I can read biographies) I read what I call movie books. If I can get into a book deep enough I begin to see the action and characters as if they are on a screen and I'm watching a movie.
Anyway .. take some time a pick up a Dresden book, if you have read any before I would suggest #1 "Storm Front"

What happened on Monday February 11th?

I haven't made a personal post in a fair while (I probably have lost most of my regular friends), mainly because I'm not willing to admit things to myself. Kind of a bold statement don't ya think!

What's going on is I have been suffering from depression for about the last 10 months or so. I hadn't done anything about it until recently because I felt I was being a wimp and just causing myself to be down. Due to how I've been handling the depression I've been flying off the handle quickly, yelling a lot, this has made me a real asshole to my family and just a jerk to live with. I finally felt I had to do something about it when I was getting suicidal thoughts. Not that I would ever do it, just that I would think how much better Wife and kids would be without me.

I went to the doctor a few weeks ago, he has put me on a antidepressant called Cipralex. I find the affects to be interesting. My emotions/reactions aren't as explosive .. I'm thinking before I get upset or worked up and I can make a more intelligent decision about what my reaction needs to be. For the most part it's kind of nice. There are down side's to this, I get a slight nausea feeling an hour or two after I take the pill. Late in the day around two or three pm I get incredibly tired and this may sound weird but I have to remind myself which part of my progressive lenses that I need to look out of. I've also come to realize that I handle my emotions differently then people around me.

We have been talking to a family councillor the last few months, on how to handle raising a teenager with ADD-I. Part of is that I have come to realise that I am also ADD (I have to get myself tested, but like I said other things have to come first -- BILLS!!!), and I don't know how to explain this but I get a rush from extreme emotions. These pills make me feel mostly dead emotionally (though it has been explained to me that I am feeling and thinking about things the way everyone else does - damn you guys are emotionally dead), things that would normally set me off in a emotional high I am now thinking about and realise that I don't have to overreact, where before I would have gone through the roof. I was or better put I do enjoy the extreme rush of the emotional reaction. Though I now realize that this is not good for me, my family and my married life.

I have had a couple of anxiety attacks since starting to take the pills, mainly while I'm out shopping with Wife, I think these originate when I'm conflicting between what she wants me to do and the fact that it goes against what I want. My only problem is that I get testy and snappy when this happens and I get upset at her. I don't want to do this, so I have to work on this. I know that I will need to talk to someone about this, I have plans to it's just right now I have to many other things that I need to get done.

Things are going well for Eldest, he is on a new ADD med and is succeeding at school. In fact today we have been informed that in two of the classes that he has been struggling in, he was able to get a 85% in the last two tests as opposed to 45% to 55% that he was getting. He is happy and says he likes the difference between (as he says) the focused world and the unfocused world.

Middle is being a thirteen year old, the attitude is incredible, but for the most part she is a wonderful human being who puts up with being a middle child trapped between a brother who is getting a ton of attention and a little sister who demands attention. Life can be unfair, but we are trying to be fair with her. She hates being a goalie, but she plays so well, its a shame but I think this year will be her last year in hockey.

Youngest is youngest, demanding attention, seeking confirmation that she is the centre of attention. She wants to be a famous singer when she grows up, but just try to get her to practice.

Well that is it from me, I've come clean with myself and now back to music and pictures of plants.

Enjoy Muddy Waters,download
Mannish Boy.mp3

What happened on Thursday July 12th?

Zantedeschia


Larkspur


Sometimes posting pictures of flowers makes your day.

At TaiKwonDo last night I almost took out a 16 year old. We were doing a punching drill, the kid lowered the shield and I almost caught him in the throat, I pulled the punch just in time. Left a nasty red spot on him though.

Kids are well .. Eldest gets mid term marks for summer school .. hand peirced his ear himself last night, 3 times. To impress a girl. What a git. Middle is at her cousins for the week, so no fighting between the kids. Youngest is geting everything she wants.

How goes life with you?

By the way the music below is available for a short time so grab it while you can.


Listening to Laura - Scissor Sisters

What happened on Sunday May 13th?

Tulips in the garden

Ah, Mothers Day has gone off without a hitch, other than I am exhausted. Wife had a nice relaxing day, I worked, kids did sqwat ... I'm being unfair, they helped a bit. On saturday Middle, Youngest and I went shopping for MDay gifts. We found two nice sweaters and a white skirt at Sears and at H&M we found a really nice sun dress and a very colourful babydoll sun shirt. I have discovered the perfect way to shop for wife. See cloths, show it to the girls, girls go yes/no, look at price, hold on to it until we see something else, at the end ask the girls which ones to buy. Fool proof. In fact I was 5 for 5 on the cloths gifts this year. I'm ususally 2 for 5.

Had to hit HMV .. what is mothers day without giving the gift of music. (heck I even gave my mother music... Michael Buble and Dissy Gillespie.) Took the girls in .. I picked the music,(Middle is going on about how Mom won't like that), I trusted my instincts. INXS - The Greatist Hits from 1994 and the 2007 Grammy Nominees CD. Once again, I was 2 for 2. Last years cd's were questionable, but once she listened to them, I did okay.

So we gave the gifts to Wife in the morning, after letting her sleep in of course. We had a quiet day, the girls had swimming, Eldest had homework (we'll talk about this another time, he is grounded again) and I did laundry. Went to church and once we got home I began to prepare dinner. I made bbq chicken breast for the kids and I (Wife is a veggie), fried sweet potato and yukon gold potato chips, grilled veggies, and spanakopita. (It turned out great, Eldest tried some and even liked it, though said it could have used more Feta.)

As Wife went to bed tonight I got a kiss and a thank you. Good day had by all.

And now for a little story reinforcing why I always have to watch what I do so I don't slip into loserdom.

On thurday morning I was backing the crown vic out of the garage, more worried about the tune on the iPod than what I was doing and SMASH CRASH ... fuck...

I broke the f**ing drivers side mirror. What a tool.

Listening to Chan Chan Buena Vista Social Club

De Alto Cedro voy para Marcan'
Llego a Cueto voy para Mayar
El cari o que te tengo
No te lo puedo negar
Se me sale la babita
Yo no lo puedo evitar

Cuando Juanica y Chan Chan
En el mar cern an arena
Como sacud�a el 'jibe'
A Chan Chan le daba pena

Limpia el camino de paja
Que yo me quiero sentar
En aquel tronco que veo
Y as no puedo llegar

De Alto Cedro voy para Marcan'
Llego a Cueto voy para Mayar

What happened on Wednesday May 9th?

Diving off the rocks, last summer

Sorry about not posting lately, but I really have not had anything to say. Kids are healthy, Wife is a workaholic, my sales are slow and we are already way under quota, but there is nothing I can do accept keep calling.

I've been really getting into finding more music for my IPod. I have to admit I am kind of collector. Music Slut, Perfumed Garden (great Peel sessions) and Something I Learned Today are really good for MP3's so that I can see if I like the music. Then of course I feel guilty and have to go out and buy a CD. Oh by the way, if your really into music and want to know the history behind it. Allan Cross at CFNY is finally podcasting the "On Going History of New Music" The music has been striped out but it's still well worth listening to.

Heroes is almost over, shame, it’s been great. The last two episodes have kept me on the edge of my seat. Thank god we recently got digital TV, since Eldest has a lacrosse game every Monday, I thought I would miss Heroes, but luck has it that Global BC runs the show at 11pm Eastern. So I get my Heroes fix, with no withdrawal. Speaking to TV withdrawal, does anyone know if Rockstar is back on this summer, I can't find any mention of it. Wife, who is in advertising, says she hasn't seen it in any of the summer schedules. Sucks.

Was thinking this morning about making a dreary depressing post about not knowing where you are in your career. You know what I mean, mid 40's, no direction at the job, just making money and bidding time till your real life starts. (Kids, home, weekends, marriage). Then I realized why complain, someone is paying me to do something I do well so that I can do what I want. Kids, home, marriage etc... Work is not the be all and end all of us. We have to have another course planned out. I decided I work for money so that I can do the things I want. I don't work to self fulfill my personal needs to be a human. Now I just have to make myself get up off the couch and pick up a brush to paint, go to TaiKwonDo (I haven't gone since I got back from Florida, no excuse other than I'm a lazy shit), take the camera and snap some pictures, sketch, ride a bike, teach youngest to ride her bike, spend time with the kids, snuggle with Wife or spend a couple of hours gardening. I just have to realize that these are the things that make me happy.

Thanks for the comments guys .. keep them coming.
(by the way la bellina mammina the orchids are from Royal Pacific Resort Orlando Florida, the only time you see those here in Ontario is at a green house or as a house plant. They are very hard to grow as they don't like the extremes of temp that we have.) Thanks for the comment, I love to take photos of flowers.

I'm doing so bad in they hockey pool that I'm not even looking any more. Last time I looked I was 15th place.

Listening to The Band, Chest Fever, from "Music From Big Pink" (1968)

I know she's a tracker, any scarlet would back her
They say she's a chooser, but I just can't refuse her
She was just there, but then she can't be here no more
And as my mind unweaves, I feel the freeze down in my knees
But just before she leaves, she receives

She's been down in the dunes and she's dealt with the goons
Now she drinks from the bitter cup, I'm trying to get her to give it up
She was just here, I fear she can't be here no more
And as my mind unweaves, I feel the freeze down in my knees
But just before she leaves, she receives

It's long, long when she's gone, I get weary holding on
Now I'm coldly fading fast, I don't think I'm gonna last
Very much longer

"She's stoned" said the Swede, and the moon calf agreed
I'm like a viper in shock with my eyes in the clock
She was just there somewhere and here I am again
And as my mind unweaves, I feel the freeze down in my knees
But just before she leaves, she receives

(Lyric copied from LyricWiki)

What happened on March 23rd?

I guess I should post more but it's the end of the year and I'm only at 68% of quota with only one week to go. I'll try to get a meme I grabbed off of Paul up tonight.

Eldest turns 15 tomorrow. Wow! He just keeps growing. He is totally into skate boarding, Bam Margera and Finnish Death Metal .. lord help me.

You Are Elmo

Sweet and innocent, you expect everyone to adore you. And they usually do! You are usually feeling: Talkative. You've got tons of stories to tell. And when you aren't talking, you're laughing. You are famous for: Being popular, though no one knows why. Middle aged women especially like you. How you life your life: With an open heart. "Elmo loves you!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Listening to:

Baby Stick Around, Look Sharp, Joe Jackson
Come on you people get your dancing shoes on
Reds and yellow and pinks and blues on
Too late, too late
To stay home and sit around

Purple leopard skin and see-through plastic
Whatever you want, but just make it drastic
Too late, too late To stay home and sit around

What you wanna bet
We ain't started yet
Baby stick around
Baby stick around

Pushin' and shovin' and sweat wet leather
Up and down we go chained together
Too late, too late
To stay home and sit around

Somebody tellin' me the latest scandals
Somebody steppin' on my plastic sandals
Too late, too late
To stay home and sit around

What you wanna bet
We ain't started yet
Baby stick around
Baby stick around

Too late, too late
To stay home and sit around

What you wanna bet
We ain't started yet
Baby stick around
Baby stick around

What happened on March 6th?

I wasn't going to post today, only things I have to talk are last nights Heroes .. excellent as always, am really pissed of though, I have to wait till April for the next installment.

I got my blue belt on Thursday (boy did I screw up when I was doing my patterns. We did them facing in the opposite direction then we normally do them and I made a bunch of mistakes, got pissed at myself and said f**K out loud - 44 year old loser anyone).

Youngest got her orange belt on Friday, Eldest is back to his old tricks with school, he threw out a test he was supposed to bring home for us to sing, third time since xmas that he has done this, has been caught each time (he must think we are stupid), Middle won't draw anymore (at one time all she wanted to do was go to the High School for the Arts, now she won't even pick up a pencil).

Finally, this story caught my attention. What do you think, is this going to save lives or is it going to make us cannibals?

Listening to:
Everyday I have the Blues, B.B. King

Everyday, everyday I have the blues
Ooh everyday, everyday I have the blues
When you see me worryin' baby, yeah it's you I hate to lose

Whoa nobody loves me, nobody seems to care
Whoa nobody loves me, nobody seems to care
Well worries and trouble darling, babe you know I've had my share

-- solo --

Everyday, everyday, everyday, everyday
Everyday, everyday I have the blues
When you see me worryin' baby, yeah it's you I hate to lose

Whoa nobody loves me, nobody seems to care
Whoa nobody loves me, nobody seems to care
Well worries and trouble darling, babe you know I've had my share

What happened on February 20 th?

My Kids

I just realised that I haven't talked about the kids in a while. They are all doing very well, other then growing up. As I mentioned in a email to a friend lately Eldest is turning 15 and is such a pain in the butt, Middle is turning 13 and is becoming a pain in the butt, and youngest just turned 7 is just to cute to be a pain in the butt.

Eldest is adjusting to grade 9, but any suggestions or help we might offer or want to offer is not right, because in his eyes we just don't understand him or his life. Crap, that the same shit I feed my parents. Is it just a cycle that God puts us through to punish us for our past indiscretions? No really, Eldest is doing well, what with the talks with the psychologist and the medication we have gotten him to focus on events around him. He is no longer a target for bullying, in fact some of his worst tormentors last year have become friends this year, because he is now able to not over react to situations. I'm very proud of him. I just have to get him to stop tormenting his sisters, trying to get a girl friend (I don't remember being this desperate), bugging me till I yell and being such a general pain in the butt for the fun of it.

Middle is as I said almost 13, !a young woman!, if you know what I mean. How many Dad's out there chat with their 13 year old daughter about her period. (creepy, but I'm doing it) The only thing I stress is the I will break the legs of any guy who touches her. (I try to leave it at that point, I want to say "when you don't want to be touched, but I just don't want her to be touched until she is 30) She talks to her mom about guys, not to me (which is a good thing). She is having a good year as a goalie, had a great game last week, stood on her head for her team. They won as a team, which was great. School wise has been a problem, she seems to miss a lot of what is being said to her, so her work and marks are suffering. She is making mistakes that should not be happening, so I am taking her to the doctor for a check-up this week.

Youngest is another thing altogether. She is the baby and can get away with anything, which pisses the other two off. She wants to do everything and be involved in everything. My mother calls her Ms. Diva, always the center of attention. She is going for her orange belt in a week. She does her pattern so well, that Sensei wants to get her into a advance class. But she is involved in so many other things she can only get to class once a week. Life with her will never be boring, I just dread her as a teenager.

For me life is good. Trying to control what I eat (ususally fail) but am going to TaiKwonDo at least 3 days a week. Putting on muscle mass but not losing weight. I have my blue belt test next week .. I have to know Saifa ... learning it slowly. Only so much you can teach a old horse. Wife is good, working to hard, trying to rest but never getting enough sleep because of her damn husband who snores (me). Trying out breath right strips right now .. other than this cold I have they seem to work.

We're a Happy Family, Rocket to Russia The Ramones , 1977 on Sire Records.

We're a happy family
We're a happy family
We're a happy family
Me mom and daddy
Sitting here in queens
Eating refried beans
We're in all magazines
Gulpin' down thorazines
We ain't got no friends
Our troubles never end
No christmas cards to send
Daddy likes men
Daddy's telling lies
Baby's eating flies
Mommy's on pills
Baby's got the chills
I'm friends with the president
I'm friends with the pope
We're all making a fortune
Selling daddy's dope

What happened on November 9th?

Red Lillies in a Bunch

Wife and I had a discussion last night about Science and Creation vs.. Chaos and Creation (not in the Adam and Eve sense of creation but more in the sense of creating art, thought or developing things).
Now as I understand her statements, everything is based on science and can be explained by the rules of science. Whether it is art, math, or even procreation. Everything follows rules and cannot exist outside of those rules. Now me , I believe in pure Chaos, everything comes from Chaos and with a explosion, roll of a dice, whatever you want to call it creation is formed from that Chaos. Take art, music or even babies, Wife says they follow mathematical rules... Yellow with Blue makes green, this note combined with this not makes this tone, a single sperm with singular DNA impregnating a egg. For me each of these events represents Chaos being brought together by chance to create a singular thing. Colours splashing on a canvas, single notes being brought together by chance, millions of sperm being shot into a dark cannel and by a roll of the dice a single (in most cases) sperm breaking through a wall to impregnate a egg. This is cool stuff, Chaos is the base of everything with science attempting to set rules so that everything in existence could be explained so that we as little humans won't be overwhelmed by Chaos itself. Hey I agree with her when it comes to math .. I just can't understand math, I just don't get it. Now math I can't explain with Chaos and that is where my argument falls apart. Any help here?
Heady stuff for the ride home from parent teacher interviews eh? For a strong Catholic she has very strong views on the rules of science.

As to the Toronto Mayor race, nothing to say, everyone who is running is not worth my vote. The only thing it looks like I can do is vote against the front runner (Miller) in hopes that not enough people do this so that Pittfield doesn't get elected. As to the councillor in my riding, she has to go, but once again there is no one to vote for. The next four years for this city is going to suck.

By the way I started to see a psychologist a few weeks ago. Wife says I forget things moment after I say something (kids agree with her), I'm having problems with my temper (the smallest thing sets me off), I'm having problems with personal contact with people (I hate being touched) and I'm just wound up tight as a top. Our family doctor says its stress and that I need to talk. So we will see how talking to him goes. The first night was so bad, I was half an hour late because of traffic, and just tense as anything. If someone had said the wrong thing to me I would have hoped out of the car and just lit into them. He got to see me at my best/worst.

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Lyrics for Helpless from CSNY from the album Deju Vu

There is a town in north ontario,
With dream comfort memory to spare,
And in my mind I still need a place to go,
All my changes were there.

Blue, blue windows behind the stars,
Yellow moon on the rise,
Big birds flying across the sky,
Throwing shadows on our eyes.
Leave us

Helpless, helpless, helpless
Baby can you hear me now?
The chains are locked and tied across the door,
Baby, sing with me somehow.

Blue, blue windows behind the stars,
Yellow moon on the rise,
Big birds flying across the sky,
Throwing shadows on our eyes.
Leave us

Helpless, helpless, helpless.

What happened on November 7th?

Red Dahlia on Green


Heroes update: The kid has powers, he can effect electronic's? (ala Forge)
What's with the Tatoo on Matt's back, it's the same one that radioactive man has on his back.
Issac has disappeard, he is nolonger in his loft, the only problem is that in the first episodes Hiro (in the future) visits him, where he is dead on the floor. Has Issac tried to change the future?
The Petrelli story line bugs me, I just can't bring myself to like the either of the two characters, ones a slime ball and the other is a whinner.


Pretty cool blog by Greg Beeman producer of Heroes, also I've have found 9th Wonders the official/unofficial website of the show. Also if you have the time, NBC is doing a Online Graphic Novel of the show, give it a read.
We will see what happens over the next few weeks, hopefully the writers can keep up the quality.

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Kids are doing well, Eldest got his mid term marks, almost all A's and B's, but a D in French and a C in Science ... not studing for tests is the problem, hopefully he has learned his lesson.
Middle is okay .. Has become very complacent about homework and hockey, not trying as hard as she can and just geting by. After a talk on the weekend with Mom and Dad (me) she won a very important game and has tried a bit harder with the homework.
Youngest is just a ball of energy and I can't keep up. I have never seen her tired.

Wife is great, she hasn't had to travel to much lately.
Nothing else really to say, I'm just boring.

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Lyrics for "Here Comes Your Man", 1989 The Pixies

Outside theres a box car waiting
Outside the family stew
Out by the fire breathing
Outside we wait til face turns blue
I know the nervous walking
I know the dirty beard hangs
Out by the box car waiting
Take me away to nowhere plains
There is a wait so long
Here comes your man

Big shake on the box car moving
Big shake to the land thats falling down
Is a wind makes a palm stop blowing
A big, big stone fall and break my crown
There is a wait so long
Youll never wait so long
Here comes your man
There is a wait so long
Youll never wait so long
Here comes your man

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Cashbox # 1 song for the week ending Nov 11/90 "Listen To Your Heart" - Roxette

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What happened on October 4th?

I-75, driving south during March Break 2006.

I was going to do a post about the new TV show Heroes, but I'll save it for later.

I don't know what today has been like for you so far, but for my family and I it has sucked. Whether its the weather (we had a horrible thunder/lightning storm here in Toronto this morning. It only lasted between around 5 am to 7 am, but tons of rain fell, lots of thunder and a lot of lighting) or is it because everyone in my family is nuts, I just don't know. This morning in my family no one could get along, Eldest was snapping at everyone (he took everything as criticism), Wife tried to keep her cool (but lost it one me and Eldest in the end), Middle couldn't concentrate and snapped at youngest and me (Dad), Youngest just couldn't sit still and yelled at everyone about undone homework and taking cans to school for a food drive. Me, I lost it on everyone but Youngest. (I'm such a a**hole!!) The only one who is a saint is Nonna, she is making us Gnocchi for dinner.

I wonder how weather can affect a whole family?, can air pressure change personalities? (I need to google this) We were just at each others throats this morning, and no one came out of it happy.

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Rainy Day People, ©1975 by Gordon Lightfoot

Rainy day people always seem to know when it's time to call
Rainy day people don't talk
They just listen til they've heard it all
Rainy day lovers don't lie when they tell you
They've been down like you
Rainy day people don't mind if you're crying a tear or two

If you get lonely, all you really need is that rainy day love
Rainy day people all know there's no sorrow they can't rise above
Rainy day lovers don't love any others, that would not be kind
Rainy day people all know how it hangs on a piece of mind

Rainy day lovers don't lie when they tell you
They've been down there too
Rainy day people don't mind if you're crying a tear or two

Rainy day people always seem to know when you're feeling blue
High stepping strutters who land in the gutter sometime need one too
Take it or leave it, or try to believe it, if you've been down too long
Rainy day lovers don't hide love inside they just pass it on
Rainy day lovers don't hide love inside they just pass it on

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By the way for you music/history freaks like me .. today is the 36th anniversary of Janis Joplin's death.

What happened on August 22nd?

19 years ago I got married to this lady!

What happened on July 19th?

Pagoda Lantern, Festival of Lanterns Ontario Place
Taken by Me on July 8/06

Do you know sometimes the world just sucks for people.

Eldest is having a hard time right now. He has been bullied for the last few years, his grades have dropped badly, he can't seem to do anything right. We had him tested by a psychologist. They say he is AD/HD I or ADI or ADD I or Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder Inattentive... whatever you want to call it. It sucks. He doesn't bounce off the walls, he isn't destructive, he just can't concentrate on anything for more than a few seconds. He has a hard time understanding when people are serious or joking, he can't decipher verbal and non verbal signals from people. Just like his old man. I was never diagnosed ADD, but I was always told I was a dreamer, I didn't pay close enough attention to the class, I had to attend special classes because I couldn't keep up with the rest of the kids, I never knew what people were talking about because I couldn't understand what they meant, but I learned coping techniques on my own, he hasn't yet. We've got him talking to the psychologist about how to cope with with people and the world around him, it sucks for him, he is realizing that he is different not because he wants to be but because he is. We're trying to help him but its hard.

On top of all this, last week, he gets mugged on the way to the dentist.. the shits took a $75 iPod and patted him down for his wallet .. no one should be treated this way. But my son was. We filed a report with the police, nothing yet. I've driven around the neighbourhood seeing if I could find them... what would I do if I did, run them down with my car (I can only dream) Now he is nervous about going out into the neighbourhood by himself. A month ago he had no problem riding a bus to Yorkdale by himself, now we can barley get him to visit the guys in who live only a block away from us. You want to keep your kids safe, but nothing you prepares you for this. At least a good side to this is he has started to take TaiKwonDo again.

Middle just got a cast off, she broke her arm playing soccer, Youngest is herself.. I love them all